So sorry for your pain, WHG. Sometimes to feel deeply succks but imagine that same depth of emotion, only it's love. You can have that.

There's a poem by Mary Oliver that I often turn to, it's called The Journey. It's easily found through google.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss