to get back to the question of dating.. although it would be really nice to have the excitement of dating, i'm completely not ready. what if he turns out to be a great guy and things do turn around with H? maybe i choose new person which i may regret later in life that i should have given M a better chance. or what if i decide to be w/ H.. how unfair to potentially start something up w/ new person only to tell them.. sorry.. i'm going back to H. and do i spend my life thinking of the what ifs?
i am not prepared to be faced w/ either of these possible choices. because in the end, i am still M. and H is the father of my children. and i love my children.. and also H. i am not "done" yet. there may come a day.. but today is not it.
BF - I think, just like you do, that you are probably not ready to date; or at least it sounds like it. The fact that you are pondering all these questions and scenarios tells me that it's just too soon. I think that if and when you are ready, you will know it in your heart.
Right now for me, the mere thought of dating someone other than my H seems like just a really bad idea. And I don't even have a rationalized answer, it's just an emotional reaction.
Anyways, I am glad you are with your BFF. I love having that comfort, support and fun! Keep enjoying your weekend!
Me & H: 44 D7, D6, S3 Together: 20y, M: 17y EA: 11/13/10, Sep: 12/23/10 EA becomes PA: Spring 2011 H filed for D: 09/06/12 D Negotiating began 2/15 OW seemingly gone on 3/15 Still negotiating D
