Waiting for the tides to change - 3

[BFloat]

My bff is here! Spent the evening filling her in on the current status of my R. She's worried about me but knows where I stand (even if she might not agree).

Then spent the rest of the night eating carrot sticks, doritos and chocolates for dinner. Ugh. And now i feel sick! My clothes better fit tomorrow.

Will be so happy to see kiddies tomorrow. There's just something about being back in my own space that's comforting.. No matter how s*cky the situation may be. Just knowing I'm home w/ kids under the same roof.. Makes me feel more secure and more at ease. Am a little nervous to see H though. Still wondering about the going ons of Friday.

Back to work tues night. . But at least I will be home.

I've been wondering if H has noticed any changes to our dynamic or how I look etc. It always seems like he doesn't really see me. Which is sad because I know other people notice me. Oh well. What can you do?