My primary concern at this point is saving myself. I take ownership of all of the things that I did that contributed to the downfall of our M, and have learned a lot about myself and my behaviors. Unfortuanately she has failed to do the same, has never given me any type of apology or remorse whatsoever. She hinted at her guilt during our last two meetings but issued no apologies.
So it's 4:40 on my 38th birthday and not a peep from her or any of my stepchildren. From where I sit that is cruel and inhumane, given the things I have done for them to try and make them happy. I did not do any of these things expecting anything in return, but damn how hard would it be to text Happy Birthday???
This is going to help in my totally detaching finally I think. I am getting to the point where I don't care what happens, and I think I will be better off in the long run getting out of this M. People in her family call her the "material girl" and she has played me like a banjo and I have been blinded to this until now because of my unconditional love for her.
So 3 days of no contact, the fact she's not going to acknowledge my birthday says a lot to me...
Have my first Divorce Busting coach session Tuesday afternoon, at this point I'm feeling like chances are I won't need the other two. If that ends up being the case I'll ask the coach if I can donate them for someone here that can actually use them.
Better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all I guess...
me 38 W 30 T 3 M in 05/2010 Separated 08/2011 Stephchildren (all hers) SS17, SS12, SD8 I filed 8/27, she countered I filed response 9/5 Anxiously waiting on the judge!
