a little sad today. today i can't even remember what it feels like to have H love me. i don't remember what if feels like to have love and affection.. or have that connection with someone. H and i use to have this way of saying i love you without actually saying it (by blinking at each other.. i know it sounds stupid). i remember the action.. i don't remember what it felt like doing the action. that's what's making me sad.
BF - I have not posted in a few days and just finished catching up. I can see that you've had some ups and downs. I know how that goes. Your thought above ^^^^^^ doesn't sound stupid at all. I am sure a lot of us can relate. I do as well. It's so sad, that I try not to think about it, specially if I think that H is getting all the affection that he wants and needs somewhere else.
Anyways, I am glad that you are busy lining up GAL activities - keep it up.
As for what your H is up to... Don't worry about it. If there is something brewing, you will find out sooner or later. So why think about it? Just go about your business and enjoy your time!
Me & H: 44 D7, D6, S3 Together: 20y, M: 17y EA: 11/13/10, Sep: 12/23/10 EA becomes PA: Spring 2011 H filed for D: 09/06/12 D Negotiating began 2/15 OW seemingly gone on 3/15 Still negotiating D
