Need HOPE- part II

[PERSEVERANCE]

Hi Everyone. It's been a while since the last post... Not much to add- I've been soooo busy. Working hard to support two households since my W moved out
... Working, taking care of the kids, home, dog, guinea pig & snake. I work in the financial service / sales industry... I enjoyed getting dirty with my job in Afghanistan more. Still seeing a C... Not a MC. D is moving forward- although still seeing W everyday. Communicating well... But she says that it could be months, years or never for our reconciliation - she says that she is hopeful. WTF... If she is hopeful- shouldn't we be seeing a MC & not getting a D. I shouldn't try to get in her head, but I need subtitles or something to understand what the heck she is talking about?! She is off living in her cottage by the beach... & I'm 4 miles away, taking care of our family while working full time... Just a bit stressed out. She helps to cook, shop, clean & take care of the kids sometimes- but it still very lopsided. Feel as though my stbx & L will try to drain away my patience and money. She keeps reminding me that I've only been home 2 months... But I have made so much progress. I know it is a marathon. God please give me the patience, forgiveness and understanding to get through this.