Together Since We Were 15...Now Piecing

[Jenna333]

Well, I'm officially moved into my apartment! We moved all of the furniture in today.

So much for sticking to what I said the other day about him not staying over until he decides to move in. He's going to stay over tonight after work (he won't be off until around midnight). We talked about how we're feeling about it. I told him I don't want him feeling like he can stay over and get all of the perks that go along with being with me and our kids, but not *having* to move in. He said he needs to have Internet because he has online homework due often, and our Internet isn't being hooked up until Tuesday. We talked about honesty and how I need to be able to trust him without question. He said he's worried if he moves in soon that we'll slip back into old habits. I'm worried about that, too. It's just something we're going to have to feel out.

I need to let go of so many things. He went on a date with that coworker 1-2 weeks after leaving me. I told him I'm worried she's the one that got away for him. I don't want the idea of her looming over us. He assured me that there's nothing there for either of them and that he wants ME. I hate that he still works with her (he's a server at a restaurant, and she's a hostess).

I know all of this will be addressed in counseling. He asked me if I'm sure I'll be ok if he stays over tonight but not tomorrow. I honestly don't know. I know that I miss him whenever he's not here, whether he stayed the previous night or not.