Its great that my H wants our daughter to be a part of the therapy he is creating the need for. Doesnt going to therapy with our 3 year old trigger remorse.
Not in a great place today. Spending the whole day with my 2 darling daughters didnt help. It is too much sometimes when it is just me & them for a couple days in row. I need help. Running to the deli to get milk when we run out becomes a major ordeal. Everything is a big deal when its 2 aganist 1. It made me feel lonely and like a bad mom.
I have cut out the 2 activities D3 did because I wanted to take it easy on myself and thought I could get back to it once we got more into a groove. But its hard getting two demanding and can I say in the most loving way sometimes bratty kids out the door for any activity. Then once you get to the bday pray that they dont have a melt down. I freaked out on my D3 today when she crossed the street without me. Obviously she should not have done that but I felt overwhelmed shleping groceries and pushing the little one in the stroller.
Its constant cooking, cleaning and refereeing. I am exhausted. Tomorrow we go to my moms. Hooray!!
It aint easy being a single mom and as much as my two girls are angels my house looks like a tornado came through and we were outside half the day.
Feeling like a lousy mom.
Deep breath, okay now I feel better. Thks for listening y'all - back to mayhem
---- M 39 H 35 D5,D4 M 4 T 9 ILYBNILWY 5/18/11 Left 7/11/11 Divorced 12/1/13
