The concert last night was great! But I did find myself missing H. We both love music so much, so when the group sang one of our favorite songs, I almost lost it. I pulled myself together, but I did end up sending H a text with some concert video saying "I probably shouldn't say this, but I miss you." He responded "I miss you too. :-)"
He called me at 3am this morning saying he intended to call me earlier given the time difference. We chatted for a few minutes and he told me I had to come out there. He was a little on the drunk side, so I doubt he will even remember the conversation. But he did say I love you first before he got off the phone.
I did clue my sister in that H and I were not doing great. She loves H and considers him her brother. I didn't get into the details, just told her that I thought H was going through some kind of life crisis. I told her that I didn't know what was going to happen with us. (I told you guys before that I found out some things about H that makes me think he needs to be in counseling...serious counseling. No details, but just know I'm not in any danger.
It felt good to finally clue her in. My twin is the closest person to me outside of H. Since I didn't give her many details, she of course said I had issues too. I said I knew that, and was hoping both H and I could work this out.
In kind of a blah mode today. Watching Whitney Houston's homegoing service. Feeling that life is too short not to do all you can to be happy. Gonna get some rest. I have to leave early tomorrow to try to beat the snow that's coming to DC.
