Thank you for the encouragement 2thepoint. I just seem to write to vent and if someone responds it's a bonus and Laurie, She's great
Yesterday was challenging. I was going to go to an al anon meeting but he asked if the kids n I could go visit him at work for an early lunch! He hasn't invited us since September!!!! So I got my little ones ready and we had a really nice lunch.
After that I went to the mall and bought myself some clothes. I've gone down 2 sizes and I look ridiculous even in my pre-pregnancy clothes. So I'm feeling a little more like myself.
In an effort to build on my friendships, I hosted a 2nd Fri nite happy hour at my house. It's so friends and their hubby's can relax w the kids. I enjoy it and everyone else looks forward to it. Since we can't get sitters for our little ones a big happy hour playdate is a lot of fun. I love it cuz we are so relaxed. If kids make a mess I really don't care. If they break something. Oh well. I wasn't like this before. I'm liking this carefree me
He came over this morning to pick up the kids and brought me a thinking of you gift, hemp lotion. I got a trigger cuz I could smell his cologne. I immediately figured he had spent the night at her house and was coming from there. I think he could tell I wasn't too excited about the gift cuz he said, "not that you don't smell nice. I just thought you'd like it." I tried to shake off the trigger and I thanked him. It was hard
M 42 H 39 T10 (-2yrs separation) S8 D5 DD 7/30/11 (EA&PA) Reconciled 6/2013 Separation in works 1/2017
and Laurie, She's great 
