Waiting for the tides to change - 2

[BFloat]

it's rainy. what can you expect from raincouver. oh well. plans for browsing through thrift shops w/ gf still on the menu.

i miss the kids. wondering what they're going to do today. had to look at a million pictures and watch video clips of them before i went to bed last night. D2 is growing up so fast that whenever i come home from a weekend away, she seems to have changed! on days like these i think.. how can H stand to be away from them so much?

a little sad today. today i can't even remember what it feels like to have H love me. i don't remember what if feels like to have love and affection.. or have that connection with someone. H and i use to have this way of saying i love you without actually saying it (by blinking at each other.. i know it sounds stupid). i remember the action.. i don't remember what it felt like doing the action. that's what's making me sad.

i better get up and start my day. if i dwell i will be a teary mess. refocus on the here and now. continuing working on becoming the person i want to be. *sigh*