It's been a rough few days. The week started out great, went snow tubing for the first time in 20+ years and had a blast. I did manage to hit my tail bone on a jump and was sore for a few days, but I survived.
IDK what has happened to me, but on Vday I sort of snapped. I think I finally realize that H does not love me in the way that I need and deserve to be, and I told him that the little crumbs he's been throwing me just isn't enough anymore and that it is time to move on. I've held on for a year and am no longer willing to hold on to someone who doesn't want to hold on to me. I won't lie, this hurts and I expected it to. But it also feels very freeing. I loved with everything I had and I don't regret that.
Today, a good friend of mine moved back to his country. Last night we had dinner together along with some other close friends and a lot of tears were shed. I don't know when or if I'll ever see him again and it makes me incredibly sad. I did the full on ugly cry and I hate that face! It is not a good look for me at all.
Lots of changes.
"Everyone you meet has baggage. Find someone who loves you enough to help you unpack." ¤Formerly DelinquentGurl¤
