I got too close to h...forgot to take care of me. Thus I was stressed, tired, not eating, etc...just didn't keep up the PMA while with h. Got too focused on h which led me to FREAK out and start assuming all kinds of wild crap. I've yet to get a good nights sleep and have lost 6 pounds in 2 weeks.
You are right I've got to step back and make this about me...forget about the d date, forget about what my feelings are to him, etc....get out and have fun, be fun to be around when I'm with h.
You are right he does enjoy my company, he does ask me out. For some reason I just got down, started seeing nothing but negative and spiraled all the way out of DBing. Even the mc said I'm trying too hard.
Quote: Honey, you've become impatient. And impatience is a killer. It is a killer for your PMA and it is a killer for your M/R.
You are right! I can't wait for this to be over!!!! I want my life to go on, you know? I bet you know what I mean.
Quote: ust enjoy being together for now, let that be enough. No R talks, no testing the water.
Right again. I need to be grateful for where my h is at now. He has come a long way. In my self centeredness I lost sight of how far he has come. I need to let this be enough. And get a life when I'm not with h.
Thanks, holdingon! After my talk with h last night, and some heavy thinking during the long hours of the night, I'm back on track. Hopefully, prayerfully my h will come back on board too.
