New trying to DB-Help!

[Truegritter]

I know, it was dumb, but sometimes the hurt is overwhelming.

There is a reason but and butt sound exactly the same.

BUT is an excuse you give yourself.

as in

I would be the man I want to be BUT

just wish at times WAW would throw me a crumb.

so I can't.

This is about YOU not her.

What if she never throws you a crumb? What if she never wants you back?

Sometimes feels like maybe I should move on, but then, what would that tell my kids?

Tell them what happened. That you would have tried to save your M BUT their mom made you choose to move on.

What do YOU want J?