Separation, Moved back in, still ILYBNILWY

[tenbusrider]

Let me get this straight....you had an entire day, to sit and play with your Son....and it was just.....Blah ????

Blah because after spending time with my son, W comes home and questions my ability and dedication as a parent.

Have you done that yet ???

Yes, journal update to follow.

Where is your hope ? How do YOU feel about taking charge of your addiction ???

Is there any internal pride in doing those things for you ? Making those changes , not to bring her back, but because they needed to happen ???


What is your plan ,to achieve the list you made last week ???

This is definitely for me, but I still hope it has an impact on my sitch. I know that that isn't detaching. I'm really struggling with that, particularly now that we seem to be exiting limbo and making a move in one direction or another.

TBH, I haven't been on my game this last week. Trying to deal with not drinking and filling that down time with something productive has been a bit of a challenge, mostly because W has been leaving me to care for S at pretty much all points. She lets me sleep in in the mornings that we're both off, but after that, it's pretty much all me taking care of him. When I bring it up, she gets indignant and talks about how I never spend time with him. Even when I validate, she either keeps on attacking me or just leaves me to keep an eye on him.