Yes, that is what the MC said I need to detach. I'm so focused on h again that I can't even get my PMA up. I'm so close, so stressed, so worried it won't work I take every little thing h does when we are together and magnify it. Even the scowl on his face worries me .
The MC said my h and I come into his office on different days, of course, and complain about the same behaviors from one another! You are right we have some of the same attack and defend attitudes. It's pathetic but I am the only one right now willing to change or can see that change is necessary to the r. Afterall I can only change me and my response to h.
I think the stress of having 30 days to make it work is pushing me to a point where I just blow up in h's face! It's hard to detach knowing that I have a limited time and not even knowing if what I'm doing will work. My h is causing some of the stress by not telling me it is working! Cause my changes are working....H DOES WANT TO STAY MARRIED!!!
The MC was mad at h also for not Doing anything to reassure me because h did come in there and say he was serious about making this work. MC said well that's the trouble you are not voicing that to Cindy and it's making her stressed. My h just doesn't talk to me...and I guess that is because I'm so busy getting carried away by assumptions I don't listen.
This whole thing is making me just plain crazy!!!! I feel like just yelling!!!! I run on my treadmill every night,,,I mean run my ASS OFF...lost 3 pounds in a week! But still I feel like AAARRRGGGHHH! You know?
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