I am trying very hard not to have negative thoughts consume me but it is so difficult!!! The thing is, whether I know or not.. It doesn't change the situation so why does it matter? By confronting.. Do I expect him to instantly feel remorse and come home and everything will be better? Of course not! He would get defensive.. I end up being the crazy b and feels more justified that he made the right choice.
I emailed him back saying it was fine that he stay here while we're gone and that I just wanted to know whether I needed our neightbour to check up on our place. I did backslide though. I asked if he could please move the bike that didn't belong to us this weekend. I didn't want it here any longer (I have asked in the past and I feel very disrespected everytime I saw it). I guess I'll wait to see what he says.
S is really starting to get over emotional with everything. He bursts into tears about every little thing. Driving me crazy but I know he's having a hard time. Poor little pumpkin.
Have to admit.. Having a hard time staying detached tonight and finding to desire to continue. Just want to let him have it! H not S. Lol
someone needs to come up w/ a website where I could upload a pic of myself and one of H and have the characters duke it out. Like a street fighter character where I could make round houses and upper cuts.
