Waiting for the tides to change - 2

[purgatory]

That ^^^^^^ made me LOL!! Watch out Rick, when you get a bunch of us angry, LBS women together.... SH!T is gonna get real!!

ok, that's out of my system..... in all seriousness, I DO think it is healthy and important for those of us with anger/control issues to take responsibility for it. I have spent a year in therapy to understand and find solutions to mine. I've also had to do a lot of 'giving respect' to my H for putting up with my erratic behavior (verbal abuse, throwing things and going after him with a power drill) for so long, and at this point, I can't say that I wouldn't have reached the end of my rope either. I don't like that he left, but I respect that he thought this is what needed to happen. There's no way I could ever apologize for the things I put him through, and I know I can't convince him that things would ever be dramatically different in only a few months.

We all have our demons that got us to this sitch- some more serious than others.
Our job now is to become comfortable with the facts of our past behaviors and vow to ourselves to never become that person again... at the same time, learn to love ourselves again and live in this 'new self', whether or not they come back.