WHG: And Alice goes down the rabbit hole...

[workinghardguy]

Well... she's pretty much out. W is staying at her new house tonight. I don't suspect she'll spend another night here barring some reconciliation.

I feel lost. I feel relieved I guess, but lost too. I keep seeing headlights go by and expect them to be her pulling in. I know they're not, just programmed I guess.

I ended up seeing her and her friends tonight. I came home after my board meeting. I assumed she was done for the day but no... they came back to get another load. That was awkward but not terrible. I like the two friends who were with. We actually all talked and joked. S is at grandma's tonight so it's just me here alone tonight. That's pretty uncool on the first night... should've planned that better. At the same time at least there's no one here to see the tears.

Just suxx. I know good things have come of this process. I just wish we could've gotten there without this.

Tomorrow I take S to a hotel and waterpark for two days. That will be good. I need to get away from here for a bit.

It does feel more like my house now, even though there are still lots of boxes and stuff here. By Sunday that will be gone.

Guess it's time to turn in. I'm exhausted and not tired all at the same time. I wish her luck. I wish me luck too.