Waiting for the tides to change - 2

[BFloat]

wow! totally missed rick's post!

yes i have to admit that i have some controlling tendencies. and yes i get angry (who doesn't). but believe me when i say i don't have anger issues and have never been verbally abusive. in fact, i am sort of the opposite. mostly calm, and more of a peacemaker than anything. i do however have trust issues. and that's part of where my controlling traits come into play. i try to control to protect myself (although it obviously hasn't worked all that great for me lol)

i'm no saint! but i would never say that this is my fault (and i know you never said that it was). i recognize my part in the breakdown of this marriage and have tried very hard to become a better person. i've looked within myself, attended counseling, read self help books... all because i love my H.. my children.. and even myself.

so now i am working on letting go and allowing my H to discover himself. i can only hope he does the work. (i can only control myself.. i can only control my choices.. whew!)

rick.. i know you care.. because if you didn't.. it would be so much easier to just disregard and not say anything. so thank you!