Ok, so it might have been really gross- I admit that. BUT it does help me to think of her as something gross instead of a pretty, fun and opposite of me OW.

Rick1963 had a great perspective on the WAH and anger... I know for me, I dealt with my post-partum depression and it was ALL anger and aggression. I only got violent a few times, but that's a few times TOO MANY.

BF- I'm glad that you were never as angry as I was- and I totally understand getting pushed to the limit. I have discovered that I DO need a way to release all the adrenaline that builds up when I get really frustrated, so I've started taking a hammer to a spare piece of 2x4 in the garage. Maybe one day I'll stain it to really showcase the dents and hang it as wall art.... only I will know it's true reason for creation!

Glad you have decided not to confront H. It's better for your mental health, and doesn't give him any reason to call you a 'crazy person'. Besides, I'm sure he would find some way of twisting it around onto you (because you know the WAS can't ever take responsibility for their own actions/ sarcasm.) This is hardest part: doing what you logically know is the right thing, but feels opposite of your instincts.

You are doing an awesome job with yourself and the kids!! Learning Guitar will be so much fun! And it will be great for you to play while your kids dance and sing.
Have fun tonight smile

M-31, H-31
T-9, M-7
S-6, s-20mth
sep 8/1/11
ILYNILWY 11/29/11
Creating separation papers.
Discover H has feelings for BFF, she does too 1/11/12
H moves out 1.20.12