So it sounds like some very important conversations.
My H always draws the line at counseling. And I think that we can't go back to the way things were. If that is your deal breaker, then stick to it!
Everytime my H makes his moves back to me my heart leaps with joy, then in our conversations he won't agree to go to C. It is like beating my head on a wall!
I'm glad you are feeling strong!
Me 57 XH 58 Sons age 32 & 27 M:32 D final 9/12 Bought 10 Acres and Living the Dream!