CIndy, Under no circumstances should you put yourself in financial jepardy!
Is there a purpose to dropping the suit for D? What couldyou gain from it? So you think it would suddenly change H's mind about everything? I think not.
You don't have to proceed do you? When you don't know what to do, do nothing.
You've been incredibly strong this past week. I know how frightening this is and how your afraid you'll lose H, but do you have him now?
How can you lose something you don't have. He has to come to you out of his own free will or it won't mean a thing.
Pursuing him will give you that fleeting "fix" your looking for, but it won't change a thing except to let H know he has you right where he wants you.
Don't let him know how you feel anymore. Be mysterious. Get a life outside of your H. If he comes home-great! If he doesn't, then your ahead of the game for yourself.
