WHG - so sorry things are as tough as they are for you and the kids. But you know that you are doing the right thing by being there for them. In time, they will come to appreciate it and you for being an important part of their lives.
Your sadness made me think of the song from the musical Annie:
The sun'll come out Tomorrow Bet your bottom dollar That tomorrow There'll be sun!
Just thinkin' about Tomorrow Clears away the cobwebs, And the sorrow 'Til there's none!
When I'm stuck a day That's gray, And lonely, I just stick out my chin And Grin, And Say, Oh!
The sun'll come out Tomorrow So ya gotta hang on 'Til tomorrow Come what may Tomorrow! Tomorrow! I love ya Tomorrow! You're always A day A way!
Keep your chin up, WHG. The sun WILL come out tomorrow!!
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It's easy to find our bottom, it is our top that requires cultivation.
Every rough spot adds to our emotional constitution. -Barney Fife