Brklyn - I'm with you that you are not backsliding.....and instead are moving forward. We are both at a similar point. Its time to get ourselves back. I think I have been suppressing my anger more than you. I have been very angry at myself for losing myself to her issues.
Food for thought...I plan to focus on my life and my sons before moving forward. I plan to give my W until mid-May and I will reevaluate our M then. You have some time until you have to decide on your apt. Do you think it makes sense to quietly work on yourself until then without taking action against your H? Maybe a transition phase from this current horror show to something better?

((((You are here)))))