Well the h called last night in response to my message regarding the taxes disbursed via escrow.

THEN....I was dumb and asked him what happened to his counseling appointment. He replied that he (1) didn't feel like going, (2) didn't know what answering 'name 7 people that have influenced him' have to do with the state of our marriage now, (3) my little outburst Tuesday proved I was not changing (got upset cause he kicked us out of his apartment), (4) and because I was asking one of his friends to dance, said I told friend right in his face 'let's make h mad'.

When he launched into his tirade about why he didn't go to counseling, I didn't freak out but the defensive me kicked in for a bit. Then I realized the futility of trying to defend myself and just listened. I did at one point ask him to walk in my shoes and tell me how he'd feel if I had yelled at him to take the kids and go...he said he would have done just that leave without questioning me, would have assumed that I was needing my space (huh? this coming from h who gets upset if I don't come to his place whenever he asks!!!! Can't he see the duplicity here?).

he said he doesn't think that in a months time that this counseling will help us. Not sure if that is to mean that there is no point in continuing with this mc or if he wants to continue with another mc...or if there is no point we are getting d. What does this whole conversation MEAN!? But then I think of his invite to Florida...he was thinking all the above yet invites me to Florida? WTH!!!

Anyone got a crystal ball?????

Cindy