She told me last night that she's been trying for years to make the M better and it hasn't worked and she doesn't have the strength anymore. I told her we've been in a canoe for years and she was sitting in the front paddling as hard as she could on her side of the boat, thinking I was paddling on the other side... but I wasn't paddling (or wasn't paddling as hard as she was) because I didn't realize how hard she was paddling and all she was doing was spinning the canoe around in circles and I was enjoying the scenery... Now I know how hard I need to paddle the boat and am starting to understand how she was paddling all these years. I told her if she didn't have the strength to paddle with me, I can paddle on both sides of the boat slowly for a little while until she has the strength to pick up her paddle again. When she picks up her paddle, I'll be able to better understand her stroke speed and can adjust to match it so the canoe goes where we want it to go...together. She liked the analogy but said she didn't think she would ever be able to pick up the paddle. I told her not to worry about when/if she could pick up the paddle, just know that I've got my paddle in the water and I'll be ready.
Sounds familiar but I really love the analogy. My H and I loved to canoe so it really hits home for me.
The canoe is hanging in our my garage, unused for over a year now.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss
