My Sitch/any better ideas than going dark?

[Broken74]

Thanks for the suggestions Yasu, I appreciate it!

So I come bearing the fact that I am going to take on the new moniker of divorce busting idiot and LRT dunce. Against all good veteran advice and the two books that I've read, given that things had been significantly improving between us I went ahead and did some nice things for her on valentines day. We had dinner on Friday (her and my two stepsons which was quite nice) and I could tell her heart was warming a bit based on body language and the things she was saying on this night. She added again that she is not considering or thinking about divorce and will not be in a hurry to do so in August or otherwise. She did allude to the fact that she may end up doing something that will make me mad which I could only assume would be dating the prior OM that she had cut off contact with. I said I don't care, do what you want to do, if you honestly think you'll be happier with him or someone else than I'll be happy for you.

We ended up texting on and off over the weekend, with her primarily starting the conversations. We met Monday for dinner with her and my stepdaughter, I gave the three stepkids a card with a little cash for good grades, I gave her a card, a ring, a bracelet, and sent her flowers to work on Tuesday. She loved all of the gestures and said she appreciated them, I was not expecting anything in return and as expected I didn't get anything. We exchanged further texts on Tuesday and Tuesday night I asked her to call me, this is when I got really stupid.

The end of our communication string goes as follows:

"I'm going to bed. Honestly I don't want to talk because I can probably quote the conversation before it starts."
"You're wrong but I understand you don't want to talk. I hope you had a happy day. I'll back off I'm sorry I've been annoying you. Goodnight" "Even I lucked up and got a Valentine. And I attached a picture with a paper cutout who had ripped his own heart out looking at another couple celebrating valentines day" I KNOW THIS WAS INCREDIBLY STUPID. She responds
"Ok that pissed me off, leave me alone please"
I grovel she says "Yep It was stupid. Typical of you to do though. You haven't changed, you're a damn good actor though, kinda. Goodnight and take care"
I reiterated my apology this morning and she is extremely cold. "stop texting me, Learn how to handle your emotions better, maybe in a mature way. Doesn't matter if I'm mad at you or not. I don't want to talk to you anymore. No more pictures, texts, letters, nothing please."

This all because I sent a stupid picture via text that I KNOW I SHOULDN"T HAVE SENT. And I've been violating more or less 37 of the 37 rules all weekend. It's like I'm an LRT binge drinker or something.

So I deserve to be beat up because I didn't follow the proper advice I was given, I went out on my own and went with my gut, and it obviously has cost me dearly. I am at the point where I am on the fence as to if I want to continue fighting for this or not. I have a gorgeous young lady with very little baggage that is begging to spend time with me, not that that is the smartest thing to do at this point. .

Did I go to far? I am taking the "believe nothing that they say and only 50% of what they do approach". I am certain now that she won't contact me on my birthday Sunday. We still have dealings related to my car that she is driving and how to get that sold to her, and I have a number of my possessions stored in her garage. The target for refinancing the car is the end of March so we will be forced to communicate by then.

She mentioned that I was immature and that I have been for the six months since we separated because of my reaction after uncovering the EA she was having. Based on things that she said Friday and Monday, I can tell she is struggling with guilt based on what she did, as she was comparing her actions to what I did when we were dating and saying she "owed me more than one" trying to downplay the significance of the EA.

So basically I am restarting the LRT, and think it is time to enlist the help of a Divorcebusting coach. I was feeling good about where we were Friday, and up to 10pm last night until I sent that stupid picture, it's like I want to fail I knew nothing positive was going to come of that at all, but I had to do it, apparently because I'm immature. .

Apologies for not "respecting my elders" and following the proper advice, I obviously wish I had now and know better going forward.

Thanks in advance as always for any input you guys can provide and good luck with your respective sitch's. .