I have had difficulty with the "turning it over to higher power" AlAnon 3rd Step but I keep trying. I know that when I am able to embrace that then everything else goes better because I let go of that belief that I can control things. I don't have to worry about every little detail because it's out of my control. I can concentrate on my next step.
I can only control myself. I can only control myself. I can only control myself
Bug - I have often felt, heard and even seen the unseen hand of the universe in my life, but I have never felt more unable to handle something and need the help of the higher powers in this. This is the biggest act of faith for me and I'm just saying I'll keep walking forward all the while quite nervous. When I was a kid it was easier to do. If I suceeded I lived, if not I died, and the hand of the divine was felt through it. This is much harder for me because it involves the love of another, and my kids. It was easier when it was just me.
