Hi, rys, for one thing, stay away from the dating sites. You are still married, and married people don't date. If you want to be free to be with someone else, you know what to do. You also have the grounds on which to file, obviously. And if you are having trouble getting motivated to do anything, then write down things which you would like to accomplish, and what you need to do step by step to get there. Even if you are stuck right now, you can make a list, can't you? It requires no other action than thought and writing. There is no dang reason in the world you should be so unhappy, and so stuck in your unhappiness. You are young enough that you can find someone else to share your life with, and take your time in finding that someone. But, you have to fix what is wrong with you, first. Do you want to be very old one day and look back and wish you had taken a different path than the one you are on now?
If you are worried about the monetary aspect of it, and if your H would continue to give you money, well, you have gone back to school, and should be able soon to support yourself.
Do you really believe at this point that you would be able to get your H back? Would you want him back? He, obviously, is not the same man you knew years ago. Sometimes, even after this length of time, a spouse will want to reconcile, but I would imagine it is rare, especially when you have given him no indication that you want to reconcile. I mean, other than the phone messages stating how wrong he is.
What do you do to really enjoy life? What makes you really happy?
How is your S? Has he settled on a college? These next few months will be pretty busy for y'all. College applications, financial aid, Prom, all that senior stuff. We were doing all this stuff this time last year, so I know how it is.
I hope things will get better for you, soon.
We are doing fine here, trucks have been in and hauled away a lot of the debris from the tornado. I imagine it will be a long time before it's all gone. Things will never be the same with so many homes gone, so many trees gone. It's a shock to me every day. But, hey, we are alive, and that's what counts.
