i'm doing alright, continuing to work on myself, continuing to educate myself, continuing with counselling, continuing to hold my head high and detach from H and put the pieces of my life back together. Feeling a little lonely today but...v-day was never a big deal for us so don't feel like i'm missing anything - just thinking of him a lot today.
I am hearing more and more how many aspects of my H's life is unravelling (work, the competitive sports team he plays for, his 'friends', etc, etc, etc) a part of me feels like saying you made your bed so you lay in it but the majority of me - the part that obviously still has love for him is really worried about him. i feel that he is at risk of losing/damagin absolutely everything in his life and i think he thinks his behaviour is kept under-wraps, know one knows anything and its not affecting anything. i feel that he is spiralling to bottom and the hardest thing i can ever do is sit back and let it happen. i am taking each and every day as a new day, some are good, some bad, some just happen.
he is still delaying and putting off anything that will permanently separate our lives ie getting his name of the care lease, getting the house appraise for sale, taking married off his fb page, etc) I try not to read into this - i just know that if i 100% didn't want him in my life i would do everything in my power to get this stuff over with asap.
i hope you are doing well, thanks for checking in, i'll post back now and then. Happy v-day to you too!
