I think I am giving up...giving up on doing anything for this r other than being civil. I'm not going to seek out h...it's unproductive to do so. H will need to put forth more effort into finding out what he can do different if he wants this m to work or even to see me. H isn't going to wipe his feet on me anymore.
After all, h can't tell what I can do to make him feel more loved. This thing we are doing only serves to aggravate the both of us. If he can't tell me his needs, if all the things I'm trying upset him, and if he continues to be rude, then really what is the point in interaction? I need a break.
I plan to discuss this with the c when I see him on Wednesday. See what his take is on this. I know I don't have much time...about 45 days. I guess this is what is fueling this 'attitude'...what can be achieved in 45 days? He could choose to call off the d but to what end? He is still the same...with no d in place the only difference would be no child support. He can't stand us there for more than 3 evenings...he won't let us move in to his apartment. So what to I do with no child support? I've got no more time...and he's indicated to me that he won't be changing between now and February 13.
