Looking backward but only to move forward SEVEN

[sage]

I cannot believe it has been 2 years since I have last posted and that long, too, since I checked this thread.

In many ways things have improved dramatically in that time period. I'm past the utter exhaustion of balancing home and a young child. Baby girl is almost 6 now and a true delight. SO much easier now though I still have more desires and wishes and wants than time.

I thought that h and I were doing ok...yah there were some things to fix, don't get me wrong, and I've been trying to work on it here and there...reading the Five Love Languages again, working on some meditation (it just helps me SO MUCH) but then last night he got mad at me for something and he said something so hateful - literally full of hate - that I don't know how to not be done. I'm sure that sounds silly and a little crazy after all this time but there was so much anger and hatred and unfinished business and horribleness to his words. I honestly don't know what to do.

I've been googling therapists (for me, for us) and divorce mediation for the last 16 hours in alternating fashion.

I doubt too many folks who remember me are still here...hi to all.

Sage