You are right. I'm want my life to move on. I want my h and I to start living, having a life together, going on trips, having a house together to just MOVE ON together!!!!
I'm not willing to wait too much longer. Actually I guess I don't even need to put a DATE on how long I'm willing to wait....our d day in court is February 13.
I am willing to concede though that my h and I have made BIG progress in the last month and a half. I can't shake the feeling though that he's faking it.
Oh, well moving on with my life I think is for the best. I'm not putting in anymore effort (ie, seeing h EVERY time he asks, answering his calls right away, initiating dates, etc). If he wants me he can come and get me...the way I see it he ain't done much other than shake the tree and have his big fat juicy peach of a w fall right into his hands whenever he wants!
Though I feel as though he's made preserves of me and has put me on the shelf...when he'll take a bite is the question!
I'm turning my focus to pleasing myself. If I don't want to be with h, I don't have to be. Frankly waiting around has gotten boring, being with him is boring, worrying about this r is boring, etc, etc.
Maybe no focus on the r will produce better results than this hit and miss 180s I've been performing so far. Just for input I will re-read DR though...see if I can get a new twist on this for when I'm ready to deal with the r again.
