New trying to DB-Help!

[jlove]

today is kinds tough. Just finished workout w W. This is about the most I'll see her till dinner tonight. I left a card out for her early this am and she had one for me. It was sweet, but kinda strange feeling. It wasn't a H card, but said that I was special in her life and made her life special (could be worse I know). I know I cannot read much into it, but it's tough. Feel like today maybe a bid trigger day (ya think???) Anyway, we have a really nice new place we're eating at tonite and it's a surprise to her alothough she's mentioned it for a while. Just have to keep off all R talk, gonna need my strength. I have a wristband to pull when I go off the deep end to focus. I'll survive, I just want my W back. Hard to be with her so often and not hardly touch, etc. she did kiss me on the lips last night for the 1st time in weeks, so who knows. I have to quit trying to read her mind. focus on me and kids. Later...J