Where do I go from here

[Wedge5]

Ok, I don't know what to do. Divorced since Sept 2011, not what I wanted. Read Divorce Remedy, and implemented many changes. I am an emotional mess, and have been since Sept. Been to two counselors by myself, she wouldn't go. I helped her find a new place and helped her move her stuff. Looking back, not the best idea. Now, she has been notified that she is deploying and she has decided to give up her rental. I had already agreed to let her stay at my house between the end of her contract and departure for deployment, and to store her stuff at my house. I still have some hope that we can work on our relationship, but she has no intention of that. She had invited me to dinner a few times, and I went, but always felt horrible after leaving. We went Christmas shopping with for the kids together; she held my hand that day. I stayed at her house, on the couch, Christmas night. I took the kids home that night. I asked her a few days later what we were doing, and she said, “trying to be friends.” I don’t know where to go from here, or what to do. Just looking for any advice. Thank you.