Waiting for the tides to change - 2

[BFloat]

I'm actually planning 2 trips! The first one will be on the island w/ my gf and her 2 kids. That should be fun. We'll check out museums.. Beaches.. Parliament building.. It will just be nice for the kids as an adventure w/ playmates.

The second trip to ocean shores is similar to ones H and I have taken the kids to. But I have never actually been to ocean shores so that will be an adventure in itself. I wanted to take S and D because they love the ocean so much and thought it would be nice for the 3 of us to take walks and just have some down time together. .

H has not responded to my email yet. I may have to txt him (which I really don't want to do) because I want to book the stay soon. I could just go ahead and book w/out discussing w/ him about taking S out of school early but I think he may be resentful because he didn't have input.

Tired today. Last night I was thinking that I hadn't cried in a while and then guess what happened last night? I cried. Just remembering all that we've been through and wondering if H wanted to come back... Could I even forgive him for all the hurt?