I think you might be giving her too much poser over you right now. I see that fear in you, that you want to change some things about yourself, yet you are afraid of doing those things.
What that also tells me, is that you are still looking way too far toward her for your answers.
The things you want to change about yourself....what are they ?
What are some small, accomplish-able goals that you can have just for you ??
The name Mach1.....
It is purely Automotive....
When I was 18, I purchased a 1970 Mustang Mach1. It was truly my first love....
Also, the Kaladi brothers thing. I think it is the 2nd and 4th Saturday of the month. It isn't something that they advertise. It is definitely a one store thing, and I think it is a joint venture between them, the bookstore ( Tidal wave?) next door, and some local volunteers there.
I tried finding something about it on the internet...to no avail. Let me know before you are going to make it one Saturday though, I would be interested in what their version is. I had always thought of volunteering at a similar one of those things that they have here on the East Coast. I went to one a couple years ago here. And it was well worth it.
Slow down Anc, and let your mind stop reacting to "what if's" and "what could be's ". Act from a rational state of mind, instead of a reactive state of emotions.....
