I am at peace with myself today. I had a great weekend and celebrated a good friend and my birthdays on Saturday night. I have an awesome group of friends and we all had a great time.
I did plenty of soul searching this weekend and I know that the only way to gain clarity again, is to remove myself from the situation completely. Actually I think that everything happens for a reason and this was a good thing now. Funny how a few days of actually evaluating everything that has happened opens your eyes. I let this happen and I needed to see it with my own eyes. Maybe I like learning life lessons the hard way? Actually I kind of feel a little sense of relief.
Do I think I can be friends with her? The answer is no, I couldn’t be friends with anyone that wanted to hurt me and rub my nose in their mess. I am already house broke and this is now about getting on with my life. It’s time to let everything go and live. Being a friend has not helped me one bit, actually I got comfortable and let my emotions take control of my thoughts. I have removed myself from the equation and will let the cards land how they are dealt.
I looked deep and hard at that reflection in the mirror. You know what I seen? I seen a person that has a heart of gold and that person doesn’t deserve to be treated poorly. I have two great kids and a beautiful granddaughter that deserve some stability in life. I can provide that easily.
I know life has its highs and lows. How you deal with the lows are what truly define you as a person. I decided to not let the lows define me as a man.
Thanks for watching me stumble, again!
Me 44 W 38 M 18 D 18 D 13 Bomb 10/21/2010 Divorced 7/19/2011 Just getting to the 7th inning!
