Tad, You will have good days and bad days. Eventually everything should settle down for you, but it's going to take a while. Go back and re-read your postings...you've come a long way! I'm proud of you!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
