I have those days too and I'm coming up on a year S (after being married for 33 years). But then I think, what else would I be doing other than GAL, which I'm doing now. I've got too much invested in this not to give it my best shot. And I love and miss my H.
I'm sure many people think I'm crazy as a loon but they aren't living my life. Sometimes it sounds crazy to me.
It's been 13 months for me now. I also love and miss my H. I have stopped talking to everyone about my intention to still save my M - everyone has told me now to give it up and move on.
But I am not ready. I also want to give it my best shot, and I have not done the necessary work in these 13 months. Too many backslides, not consistent changes. No progress with H.
So I am not ready to give up. Like 25 says, until I know that my H has seen consistent changes of sufficient duration in me, I will not feel like I have tried my best.
How long will that be? Good question.
Grumpy M - I guess we'll all eventually know when we are there... I am glad you are feeling better now, though. Hang in there.
Me & H: 44 D7, D6, S3 Together: 20y, M: 17y EA: 11/13/10, Sep: 12/23/10 EA becomes PA: Spring 2011 H filed for D: 09/06/12 D Negotiating began 2/15 OW seemingly gone on 3/15 Still negotiating D
