Thanks everyone for the comments. W gets home tomorrow morning from HNL. She texted everyday, sent a few pictures but never called.
I did get out of the house a few times, went to dinner with my boss, then the next night I went to dinner with a few friends. It was nice. Also a friend called and ended up playing some basketball today. Think I injured my neck the other day lifting. It's pretty stiff after the bball. Getting old I guess.
I did not know about Kaladi Bros. speakers, I will certainly have to check that out.
As I said, haven't had too much contact with my W, so it has been fairly peaceful. My thoughts tend toward the D and her moving to DAL. Even though we get D, I don't want to give up, yet with her that far away what is the likelihood I will ever get a chance to reconcile with her. It seems she will build a new life without me in it. How will she ever know I've changed?
I saw on the computer that she had skyped with the shooting coach in San Anttonio the week prior to her leaving. It was when I was away on a trip. The conversation lasted 2 hours. I know she talks to him and his girlfriend quite a bit, yet I know there is nothing I can really do about it. I don't bring it up of course, yet it certainly bothers me. Does my W really view this as acceptable? Does this ever get addressed at some point?
I still haven't quite got a handle on what I need to change. I know that I do, I'm just not quite sure how to go about it. I need to have a life such that I'm not so co-dependent on W. Also need to figure out what I want.
It is very helpful to read Sandi2 and Crazyville"s perspective. This DB stuff is hard and sometimes getting a view into the mind of your spouse is invaluable. I constantly have to remind myself that I need to do things for Me, not to try and win my wife back. She is so hurt and resentful, I'm just not sure she will ever get past it.
She constantly goes back to the cheating 16 yeas ago. She does not trust me at all. Will time and distance heal that?
BTW, has anyone read the series of articles written by Rachel Clark that were posted in Psychology Today? Pretty interesting read. She was a WAW and explained how she came back to her husband.
Last question, Mach1 what is the significance of your name?
