I want to be able to talk to my partner about anything. For instance, if we have an issue with s*x, then we should be able to talk about it, not ignore the problem. I don't want to be controlled, but be a full partner in the R. I want to be able to snuggle when I want (or, he wants) or not, and not have it be a bit issue if I don't want to.
I want my partner to be interested in me and the things I do, as I am with him and what interests him. I just want to matter.
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim
... and I want to have fun with my H. I want to laugh again, like I used to. Nothing ever used to get me down, and I want that person back, and I am working hard to that end (whether H comes along with me, or not).
I try and dance everyday now. I put music on, and just prance around the living room. Or, I use the Wii dance cd. It gets my mood up so much.
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim
I want to be able to talk to my partner about anything. For instance, if we have an issue with s*x, then we should be able to talk about it, not ignore the problem. I don't want to be controlled, but be a full partner in the R. I want to be able to snuggle when I want (or, he wants) or not, and not have it be a bit issue if I don't want to.
I want my partner to be interested in me and the things I do, as I am with him and what interests him. I just want to matter.
Has there been a time recently where you have got any of those things from him, even just a bit, even for a few minutes? If so, what was happening? How was it different than other times? How did you make that happen?
Well, he can't or won't talk about s*xual issues. And he has shown a teeny weeny interest in my schooling, but I thought it was just to make conversation. We were on the phone at the time. Generally, I just give him his space, and I am very detached.
I really don't think I matter to him, in a big way. We don't touch at all. And he hasn't shown any interest in doing so.
I don't care anymore.
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim
Well, I don't care anymore in the way I used to. As WT says, I'm almost clinically detached. LOL
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim
Being, I understand what you say about wanting to matter.
I think, in my case, that we were doing this high school thing of looking over our shoulders to see if the other person was watching.
I could not figure out how to break out of that. To a certain extent I think this game is still played as X always has a way of mentioning his achievements to me.
M: 16 years Bomb 4/07 OW 20s long gone Divorced 11/09 I remarried New Guy Cooperative r w/X regarding D
Hi WCW! The ship of life is still floating. I've been pretty busy with school, so not been on here for awhile. Not much has changed re M. H still the same, and I don't expect he will change soon, if ever.
Thanks for thinking of me. I should be starting a new thread, I guess, since this one has more than 10 pages.
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim
I've been pretty busy with school, so not been on here for awhile. Not much has changed re M. H still the same, and I don't expect he will change soon, if ever.