2. Sexuality is a powerful window into who we are.
I've been doing some thinking and writing about this statement, becsuse it resonates with me. If you look into the window of CL in his twenties and thirties, it is lacking in color, emotion, sensuality, fun. It's quite a functional room, filled with books for reading. There is a telephone that never rings. A door that is usually closed. This is hardly a setting for connection and intimacy.
The room today has dance shoes, the books are still there, music. The phone rings more often. The door is now open slightly, hoping visitors will come, but still wanting privacy. The window is sometimes open, letting the sounds of the world enter.
There will be no passion without intimacy. This means moving into relationship with others in a healthy way, while holding onto myself. This means letting go of regulating autonomy via isolaton and distance and avoidance, and abandoning connection. This will be a 180 for me.
CL
CL 53 W 54 M 20 yrs. 03'-09' Separation + Old Patterns + GAL 10-14' Piecing
"The Master allows things to happen. She shapes events as they come."
