Waiting for the tides to change - 2

[BFloat]

last night i was going through the photos of H and S up on the mountain. i thought to myself.. wow.. he looks older.. and tired.. it made me wonder when i last really looked at him. i remember H saying just before christmas that he felt old (and he's only 32!). i use to wonder if he actually saw me (despite actually seeing me every day) and now i wonder, did i actually see him?

proud of myself. i applied for my own CC last night. no.. this is not my first one. hahaha.. i had one years and years ago when i was dating H. but when i went back to school i got rid of it. i never bothered getting a new one once i finished and just used H's. how dumb is that? our lives were so intertwined! it's about time i got my own again. will need it in case i want to go anywhere with the kids etc. i really can't believe i left it all these years.... sigh.

will be nice to have people in the house tonight. people to talk to.. not that chatting w/ my 5 and 2 yr old isn't fun.