Down Again - Is he done yet?

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Destiny,
Maybe your work hasn't been up to par because you have been so focused on your home situation w/your h. Destiny, you may not have even realized that your personality has changed and now is the time to stop and take stock of what you have control over and can change. If your boss said that "we think you are horrible", then that is wrong. He/she, as a supervisor, should have been working w/you along the way and not just at performance rating time. You don't drop this type of information on an employee at the rating period. Supervisors are suppose to give an employee time to work on their performance when it is lacking in certain areas.

As for your sister, blow it off...maybe the two of you aren't getting along because of the situation. Maybe she wants you to stop obsessing over your h and what he's doing or is it something else?

Now your h...he is a passive aggressive/conflict avoider who is depressed. Do you honestly think that he's going to look at himself in the mirror and say "I screwed up and I need help"? The spouse is always blamed for everything that goes wrong in their lives. They never look at the glass as half full, but more so, half empty.

Now, let's get to the statement that you are sorry that you have been a burden to us...no, we don't see it that way. You came here for assistance and we have tried to assist you the best that we can. Destiny, we all have been down this road, and yes, even our work wasn't up to par and we sure had some issues w/our siblings and friends, but we had to take the focus off our spouses in order to pull ourself up out of that dark hole. If you think harming yourself and God forbid suicide will take care of the problem...maybe for you, but what about your family, husband, friends and co-workers? You have to stop and think about everyone around you, and I am sure that there are plenty of people who love and care about you.

Seriously, I wouldn't give those who have said mean things to you the satisfaction of knowing that they've pushed you over the edge. Destiny, you are a strong woman and can pull through this. Now, call the Crisis Hotline number and talk to someone.