Destiny, What is going on? Your life is far more precious than you think it is. Come back here and post to us. Someone is here 24/7.
Call the Crisis Hotline in your area if you need to speak to a person. Do it now!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.