Congratulations on the grant application! That's wonderful news and you should be very proud of yourself.
Irish, I'm glad to see that you know you've set your expectation for yourself at a very high level. It's difficult, but you need to drop your expectation level down a few notches. Nothing is perfect in life and that's the beauty of it...you can make mistakes and learn from them. I always say to people, mistakes are to be made so that you can learn from them and that's why God made erasers. Please do not be afraid of making a mistake. When working with crafts, we all make mistakes....
BTW, you have a lifetime to do the things that you wanted to do. Rome wasn't built in a day and neither is our lives...live each day to the fullest and if you are unable to accomplish everything in a day, carry it over to the next...you have been and are very hard on yourself. It's time to re-evaluate how you want to move forward. Slow down your pace a little bit, enjoy the time w/your family and it's time to start up your crafting again. I think you'll find it's very comforting to complete your crafts and you will be very proud of your finished products!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
