Ok, so today was the first time I talked to H since November. I had sent him a text letting him know I needed to talk to him about our tax stuff (still getting that mess of things together) and had asked him to give me a call. Of course he didn't call. That would be way to easy... but he sent me an email last night to my work account telling me that if I emailed him my questions he'd get back to me sometime today. However, I wasn't able to email him during the day since I was busy at work. I called him while I was on my way home. I felt confident that I could "Act As-If" and keep the conversation positive and upbeat. I did. I also did a 180 and didn't talk of reconciliation or specifics of the D. I chose to focus on my tax questions and just keeping with the topic at hand. At the end of the conversation, I simply said "well, I know you're busy, so I won't keep you any longer. I'll talk with you soon." and he said "oh, ok" and then I said bye and hung up. IMO it went fairly well. The conversation was much less strained than it had been in the past. As an added bonus, our conversation (which up to this point had usually only lasted about 30 seconds) was a whopping 5 min. I felt good about it when I hung up. I'm trying to focus on the small victories and not overthink it or read too much into it at the same time. I get the feeling, though, that H isn't as eager to go through with this D as he'd like me to believe. I feel like if he was, we'd be progressing through this much more quickly. Some days are good and some are more difficult. Today was a combination of the two... Good in ways, difficult in others...
