Update...still need help...

I have read a lot of the threads here and they have really helped me to realize the roll I may have played in this situation. However, I still would like some insight from some of the Mods or people who have been through this. I feel like I am drowning in a sea of uncertainty.


Me- 43
H- 45
Married - 3 yrs
Together (off and on) 9 yrs
No kids
Bomb- 9/2011
Separated - 2/1/12
Filed for Divorce - 2/10/12